Life is so confusing. Just figuring out what we want is a challenge, especially because it can and likely will change over the years. Then, we make it even more complicated by trying to control how to get what we want.
However, the how is not important. The how will happen naturally if you let it. It is all about the what.
What do you want out of this one life you have? What are the things that give you the most joy? What do you want to spend your days doing?
If you can periodically answer these questions and focus on them, the how will make those thoughts into realities. You have to decide. Only you can choose what you want your life to look like. The universe will take care of the rest.